Excuses Excuses

I have added pictures of my progress! The slide show starts right before the year I gained close to 100lbs. Why did I gain almost 100lbs in 1 year? I was unhappy, depressed, quit smoking, complacent in a relationship, not enough time to exercise.. I can give many "excuses" but there is no right answer other then I simply choose not to change my lifestyle. I didn't even take the time to do girly things like doing our hair every morning to help us feel good about ourselves. I would leave for work with no makeup and wet hair! I had quit taking care of myself in all ways, physically and emotionally. I had a very small closet of clothes and didn't even care to go shopping! I had lost who I was. I have pretty much always been overweight. Even in high school I needed to loose about 40lbs and I thought that was bad! Since then I have been on every diet you can possibly imagine. From Jenny Craig, Nutri-System, starving myself, Atkins, every diet pill you can buy at Wal-mart I have tried it! Obviously none of them worked. I never did find that miracle pill that would cure all my problems. I have tried to loose weight because I was interested in some guy, thought I was ugly, to wear that swiminsuit on vacation, to get married.. every reason to loose weight except for the one that really mattered, loose weight to be healthy, happy, and feel better about myself. Now I agree we all need a little motivation to keep us going and maybe that new swimsuit I want to wear in a few months could do just that :) but until I understood why I wanted to change my life that scale was going to keep going up.